Regaining Feelings Through Experiences Part 1

Everyone is unique in several ways, although some people might not recognize their uniqueness yet. It's what a person does with their uniqueness that shows the world what type of person they are.

When I was in the hospital after the skiing accident, I realized that I had lost feelings along with losing the majority of past memories. I could not remember what it felt like to be happy, sad, etc. At that time the only feeling I knew was extremely excruciating pain.

I knew how to ski, but what did it feel like to ski? The part of my brain that stores feelings could not remember any feelings except non-stop pain. This was a very interesting thing that happened. And I looked at it as a wonderful opportunity and a blessing. The only way I was going to get all the normal feelings everyone feels back into my life was through experiencing everything all over again.

Experiencing happiness and laughter happened while still in the hospital. First, my funny aunt made everyone laugh. It felt great to laugh again, but laughing after you have had internal bleeding creates even more pain. Many times I had to remind relatives not to make me laugh. When I finally felt okay enough to start watching TV again, the first show I watched was my favorite: Friends. By that time I was able to control the laughter so the lacerated liver, bruised spleen, and lung (that had been partially collapsed) would not hurt too much more with tiny laughing.

I felt so much joy and happiness just knowing that I now had a very rare, unique, and wonderful opportunity to re-experience everything again as if it were the first time. Usually people have so many firsts occur when they are too little to remember them into the far future.